Losing Control

Okay, well, I don’t know if any of you know, but I love being in contol. Scratch that, I feel it’s absolutely imperative most of the time for me to be in control. Now, I’ve been applying like crazy at WestJet and AirCanada, most of the time in Canadian cities other than K-Town, and it looks as though I might actually get one of the jobs elsewhere. But for the first time in my life, the very first, I don’t feel the need to leave. And I believe that reason would be, or well, I know that reason would be Jake. I have honestly never felt this was about a person before. I just like him so much and I value our time together so much and everything he says and does and is only makes me want to stay beside him forever. Crazy you say, being that it’s only been a little over a month since we started dating? I agree, but nonetheless, it’s there. It doesn’t feel like it’s only been a month anyways seeing as I’ve liked him for almost four years, but still. I feel stupid and embarassed admitting that I like him so much, and I almost don’t want to do it because I don’t want to come off as this obsessed ninny, but I need to say something. I almost wish that it wasn’t as strong and I could just be free and fly off to points beyond, but then I wouldn’t have this amazing gift and I wouldn’t trade it for anything in the world. I’m a little worried, no, I’m terrified about the pain that could result from this if Jake were to leave me, but I honestly can’t help it. I’m falling for him.

Serious Relationship

Okay so lol, yesterday Jake came over to my house *sigh* with his beautiful eyes shining out at me from his super fun sun roof, and we went for a hike up into the canyons by my house and made out under a big rocky ledge with the rain drizzling silently beside us. O…M…G… absolutely amazing. But anyways, while we were there, we had a little discussion about how when we first started dating, we both said we didn’t like serious relationships. Then, he said, well, maybe a serious relationship wouldn’t be that bad, and I said, well, it doesn’t have to be a SERIOUS relationship, but I wouldn’t mind a relationship with you. And he smiled his beautiful little smile and said okay. OMG! Jake Catton is my boyfriend, holy f&^%!!!!! Omg, life is good.

Oasis baby

Ooo, on an incredibly exciting once in a lifetime note, I got my Oasis ticket!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m gonna see Oasis in august!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Qualification

Okay, so, I applied to work at Fairfield, had my little interview, everything went really well, and I didn’t get the job. Could anyone perhaps tell me why this is? Granted, I did not desperately want it, but still, it could have helped. I just don’t really understand what I’m doing that’s so wrong in all my interviews. It must be my lack of experience, but I mean honestly, how in the world does a person gain applicable experience when no one will hire them? It’s quite the conundrum I must say. Last night was excellent though. I went up in front of those hundreds of people and I never felt more confident. Everything is just so much better now than it was in high school. Instead of not even getting to go to my grad, I was Valedictorian. I mean, could there be a more positive 180? Well, hopefully things will work out with an airline. I really REALLY want to work in the airlines. Hmm, or maybe I should go to Mission Park Travel where they loved me. What to do, what to do…